Just the feeling

Brilliantly written. A song that moves me. Although I can't say why. Just read the lyrics and perhaps you understand.

Fix You~~~Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below when you too in love to let it go

If you never try you'll never know

Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home

and ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears streaming down your face and I

Tears stream down your face I promise you

I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face and I

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

introducing

hey all.............HAPPY FRIDAY


i just wanted to introduce you to some of the girls i work with. (hope they don't mind that their faces are on my blog) we got to eat lunch outside yesterday....JANUARY25 and so we had our picture taken too.

Starting on the left is Debbie, Jenn, Christina, and Tina. And Sherri and I are sitting in the front. We definitely have our fair share of "good times".

Cheers!!

camp pics

thanks to luke whom i stole the next couple of pictures from for this post.
camp was a lot of fun last weekend. i got to do a stupid skit and jam a bit at our coffee house.
check them out!
cheers.
courtney and me

denver, luke, and i

and still the numbers grow

i feel bothered.
my spirit unsettle on an issue.
or rather, a few.
i was browsing through cbc's news this morning and came across the numbers of people that have died in iraq in the last 3 years. it around, if not more then 60,000 civilians. 60,000 civilians. then i continued to search through other war-torn countries.
12,000 dead in kosovo
70,000 in darfur in the sudan
250,000 in bosnia
800,000 in rwanda
and let me not forget the most horrific since WWII...........

3.8 million people died in the democratic republic of congo between august 1998 to april 2004 (1000 people per day half of which were children under the age of 5)

i don't really know what to say.

what can i say to it.

people have died all over the world to natural disasters such as the hurricanes in indonesia which is horrible in itself....and yet, you can't stop the weather. could war have been stopped?

i mentioned the death toll of people in iraq to a couple of guys that do some work for us. the first comment was...."population control."



then i asked these two guys what they thought of the hanging of saddam hussein. and the response was...."i think they should bring capital punishment back permenantly".



i still don't know what to say. except that my heart aches. how is any of this justified? how can anyone point a gun at another, and kill them? how can we say that capital punishment is okay? i agree with dale when he mentions in his blog on saddam hussein... "Look, by rights everyone of us should hang. There but for the GRACE of God go I."

the millions killed aren't just numbers, they are people. and those behind these atrocious crimes....are people too. and above it all, God created each of us in his image. attempt to grasp that. not only does God love me but he also loves saddam hussein......

God please help us........
Jesus we need you more the breath itself.......
and as cliche as it is......
we truly are lost without you............

hockey and everything else entertaining

so i went to my first hockey game last night.
the calgary hitmen were playing the kootenay ice at the saddledome. i got a $5 ticket from the college and career group at sunwest church. good times. theres a first time for everything i suppose. we had seats right behind the goalie of the kootenay ice. pretty sweet. the game wasn't the greatest as the hitmen lost but still fun to have the experience. perhaps one day i will get to go to a nhl game.

anyways. after the game i was driving home with my friend tyler and thinking out loud. now bear with me and please don't get offended. these were just my thoughts.

hockey players. they play hockey. thats what they do. they don't feed the world with the grain they grow in their fields. they play hockey. momentarily entertaining the rest of the world with their skills. i paid money to go watch a pile of guys skate around on the ice chasing rubber with sticks. don't get me wrong, i actually enjoy watching hockey and i like playing it myself but doesn't it seem ironic. kiprusoff's "job" is to protect a square netted box from a puck. now he is very good at his "job" but again, in the grand scheme of things, we would still be ok if he didn't do that. perhaps i'm being really pessimistic about it all and for that i am sorry....perhaps this is just the way the economy/society works these days and we'd be lost without them. but i can't wrap my head around it. of course i don't want to point my finger only at hockey players....they were just what sparked the thought. am i totally on the wrong track?

if hockey players stopped playing hockey, we'd be ok. if we quit making electronic equipment, we would still be ok. what if we dropped the farmers and the fisherman?

now, please please don't get me wrong. i am a musician and the idea that i wouldn't be needed on this earth irks me. rip out my heart eh? hmmmm. i don't know how i feel about my thoughts anymore. we all were given gifts from God. we have to use them. God desires us to.......

perhaps society is just to gluttonous.... (oops another can of worms, i better stop while i'm ahead....stupid cliche).

ok. i'm done. i'll hide for a bit....haha

writers block

writers block is what i have had. i'm sorry to all of you who have been checking my blog only to find the same post that you read months ago. i didn't disappear and i didn't give up...i just got momentary lost...excuse legit? not really.
here i am. i'm still here. nope, over here...you're looking in the wrong direction. ok turn your head 90 degrees...ok now do you see me? no the other way. your other left. a little highter....right.....right.....there. ok. good to see you too. don't worry i feel your pain. thats how i feel today, completely "out there".
speaking of which, i just saw stranger than fiction the other day. i'll be honest with you all, it is now my favorite movie. it is above if not tied with nacho libre. its a crazy and brilliantly written story about an irs agent (will farell) who starts hearing a womans voice narrating his life. we learn that the writer is basically writing the story of his life which ends in demise. now that is all i'm going to say about the movie except that i recommend that you see it. dale, i'm talking to you. if you don't like movies without action or space fantasy or romantic comedy....don't go see it. but if you can appreciate a cleverly written film, go see it!! Will Farell is brilliant.
cheers.